I have been depressed since my early teens and I was always told it was just hormones and that it would all pass. But it hasn't. I am 22 and still miserable almost 10 years later. I am exhausted. The few best friends I have no longer live near me and I feel like they don't really care about me. I do not feel like I am close to my family or friends and that there is no one I can really rely on or confide in. I feel like a loner and a loser and I hate it because that's not how I wanted to end up but I feel like it's how I will always be b/c it's all I've ever known. I feel like I will never meet new people that I click with on a deep level to develop a real friendship. My parents dont believe in psychiatry or psychology so I could never openly ask them for help. I went to one therapist before without my parents knowing and I had one session with him and he told me I was dramatic; and not really depressed. It hurt me and I have been afraid to seek help since that, even though I need it. I am so alone and unhappy. I am beginning to lose hope and I feel like I must settle with depression and deal with the reality that I will never have the things I want in my life and just come to terms with it. I'm losing hope and I need help. I'm not sure what I'm looking for out of this post? I guess I just needed to let this out b/c I don't know what to do or where to find help.
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