you can always talk on here. your not alone

I really dont know, and i desperately wish i had the answer. sometimes i wish anything at all would happen so i didn't have to feel anymore. but no matter how bad it sucks for me... time will go on. and time dont care about us at all. it just keeps going forward

Hi chinablue, I have felt like this too, and I can't answer that for you, but I can only offer what helped a bit for me.

What I did was to try and give myself some simple tasks or activities (gardening, walk in the park), and then to congratulate myself when I had done these things. And to keep doing them.

Also, to try really, really hard to find something (anything) that was a little bit attractive about myself - this was so hard to do!

These things helped me to step back from the void that I felt I was about to pitch into.

Sorry to hear that you feel so alone,which many times I feel that way to.We can talk anytime.My adult son lives with me but he's so quiet,I get more of a response from my cat then from him.Thats one of the reasons I come to this site.

Hey chinablue. Been there many times myself. But I totally agre with Lightwind's advice, as hard as it sometimes may be to even gather the strength to get out of bed. Find something you enjoy for you and try to do it, and then congratulate yourself for the accomplishment. You never know what you may be capable of.

I agree it's really hard to get motivated when you're feeling down. I try get active doing something very simple, like watering my plants. I hope that after doing this, I become motivated to do more and sometimes it takes quite a push. Once I've accomplished a few things at home, I try and get out for even a short walk to breathe in some fresh air. The day is much easier to handle then.

I compare my depression to being on and island. There is another island SOO close that I can touch it, but can't get to it. It has the people that mean the most to me on it. I yell, and they don't here. they say "Where is Noel? What happened to her" She's on her island, trying to reach out to anyone that can hear her. You feel there is no way out of your problems, no nmatter how big or small. You hurt. Then you come on this site and spit it all out ALLLLL of it. In your journal. Get some advice from those who have been there, and go to Zen. Close your eyes, feel a warm breeze, hear the ocean, calm. You know. Them when your brain is a little rested, try sorting one thing at a time. People with depression try to solve everything at once and it makes us worse, stressed, and lost. lovenhugs, sweetie