Im kinda havin a moment where i just dont give a crap about anything. My boyfriend is gonna come home around 2am and Im really not looking forward to it because when he comes home hes gonna b a jurk cause hes been at the bar all night. I really dont want him hanging all over me, wanting sex exspecailly with the way I am feeling right now. sometimes he doesnt take no for an answer. I dont wanna b touched I just wanna b left alone and Im afraid of how he'll react if I say no to him. I dont even feel like dealin with him. I cut myself about an hour ago n I thought it would make me feel a litle better and it didnt. Ive been suicidal all day. I just dont wanna b here. I wish i could get out of here.
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