hey there people, im in a bad place. it feels like im always doing what i can to be with my man. i dont get to be with him much. last friday we where ment to get together but he went to a dinner pary instead. but when that got cancelled i went running to him. on saturday i cancelled with a friend to go and see him. yesterday i didnt go to my couisins birthday party so i could spend time with him cause on saturday he was going to a christmas party. around 8.30 he went to sleep. all week i had been feeling really sad and down. just this pit in my heart that wouldnt budge. then sitting there yesterday on my own, i started to cry. it was the last straw. i left. i drove around the corner and just cryed and cryed. i felt so alone. felt like i had no one to turn to. i even resorted to cutting. he's called a few times but i wont answer. he txt me and tells me he's sorry. i dont know what to do. i feel like shit. i feel like i need to stand up for myself. am i making any sense or am i just being a stupid little girl?.....