Hello, I just stumbled on this site while looking for...Well, anything to help me. The fact that there was somewhere people with the same problems as me came together was just so incredibly comforting to me. Several months ago, I discovered I was anemic, and along with that came depression and anxiety (apparently symptoms of anemia). I'm a teen, and on independent study, such that I don't attend a regular school, but do everything from home so that I can study dance in the evenings. Because of that, I really don't get the chance to leave the house during the day, like I used to. That combined with the anemia caused me, a really normal, happy teen, to end up depressed and fearful. The only time I feel really happy and normal again is when I'm dancing, or just after class, when the endorphins have kicked in. The rest of the time, like when I'm home, I have depression--I have lost joy in the things I used to love, like baking and art and music. I have thoughts about death and what happens to us, and have become terrified about it. I used to have faith and a belief in God, and with the depression it's just shattered, and I hate it! The panic attacks have gotten much better, but I still get them, and they cause me to lose joy in the places I used to love going, because I'm afraid of having another. I use deep breathing and focus on happy memories when all of this happens, and while it helps, I just want it to disappear! I want my life back! I feel that this is situational depression, from being stuck at home too much and then getting hit with the biochemical effects of anemia, so I am reluctant to go on any medication, because I truly hope and believe this will clear in the short term. I hope that by summer, when I'm back into daily classes and activities that keep me busy, I'll be more like me again. But I don't know quite how to survive these next two or three months. I'm getting retested for anemia soon, but the physical symptoms have just about disappeared--just not the mental ones! I've read the boards and some advice, and it's been so fantastic for me. Is there any other advice anyone can share that might help me with anything? Thanks so much, and sorry for the enormous length of my post! =]
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