I have had this problem for about 4 1/2 yrs now, and I don't know what is wrong. I have been told that it is depression and I have been told that it is bipolar disorder, but I know that there is a difference between the two. Ok here is the whole story summed up. 5yrs ago, I did speed for about 2 months and something happened very traumatic. Some people tell me that I "overamped" or did too much, others say that I had an anxiety attact, but I honestly thought I was going to die. My heart started racing, could not see straight, and all of the other horrible things that come with drug use. Ok well about two weeks later I found myself crying constantly so I went to the doctor, and was diagnosed with drug induced depression and was put on Celexa and Trazadone. After the prescription was out I quit taking it, because I felt better. Well here it is 5yrs later and have been completely clean since that night, and I still suffer from days where I "feel sorry" for myself, or I am just angry at the world, and I have gotten physical with my fiance. I fear death, medicine. I always feel sick, or I hurt in some way or another. Any time I have an ache or pain I feel like there maybe something serious wrong. I used to have really bad anxiety attacks but it has been about 3yrs since my last one. I am irritable most of the time especially when I don't get my way or what I want. Sometimes I have tunnel vision, and if I am on the top of a flight of stairs or looking down off of something high, I feel like I am going to fall or I get dizzy and unbalanced. I was just wondering if it could be depression or possibly something else.
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