My husband and I have been seperated now for three weeks. Prior to this have been together just under four years. We have never spent a new years or christmas together. My husband has bad cocaine habit as had since the late 80\'s. He has been in out lock up since then. I have three children from another marriage that ended very badly. So, we both had alot baggage going into this. I love my husband very much and it hard for me to picture my self with him. We had so many dreams about spending lives together. It hard for me cope with diesion he made about us. He chose habit over us. I resently bonded him out jial for third time in 60 days. When he got out he went over to his friends house. He didn\'t even call me come get him. I was do angry with him and I was hurt inside. No one seems to understand why I want to be this man after all he has put through. I keep telling them that man he is right now is not the man I fell in love with. I just don\'t why he wants to hurt me so badly. I keep hoping he realize what he really losing. I feel so used and lied to, what can to do help the situation here not only for my self but my family?
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