So I've been doing reasonably well for a few days. Since last night I've been back sliding into this damned depression. I was supposed to take a CPR class, but I didn't feel up to it. I was going to try and do some stuff around here, but instead I've been sitting around with the tv on (not really watching it), eating junk food, and moping and crying. What can't the good periods last? I can't even enjoy them because I know the bad stuff comes soon after. And the better I feel, the worse I feel later. Why do I always feel I'm being punished for something. I complain about my weight, but can't get myself motivated to do something about it. I sign up for classes and don't go. I have great kids and friends and don't want to be bothered with them. The house is a mess and I don't clean it. How have I become such a useless creature
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