I know this has to do with depression but it will probably end up being a rant going in all types of directions because that is how my mind is going. I have been so stresed out and anxious lately that all I do is worry about work and if I will lose my job, have a schedule I hate...etc. It is affecting my whole life and I can't seem to stop it. I don't go out with friends because their schedule does not work with my schedule at all. So I end up going out alone and getting myself in trouble because I always drink too much. And end up waking up with someone in my bed on occasion. It scares me because its been happening more frequently lately. I don't know what to do. I can't stop myself (I don't have the will to). I hate myself and just don't want to be so anxious anymore. I have been feeling sick a lot lately too. I feel like I am falling apart.
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