Even with the mono I am getting over right now...It is a great day! My daughter is having her birthday party today and I woke up and felt great! Better than I have in years. Back to my old self again. I finally had a doctor listen and understand me last week. For a little over 6 years I have been on meds. Ones that zombify me and make me even keel or low. Not happy, not elated...just blah or boohoo. What it destroyed in mood it did as well physically. Weight gain and an overall, aged,dead appearance. I was told finally that this is not what having bipolar type2 and or depression treatment should feel like. I was told that how I was feeling was wrong. FINALLY! At the present time, I am off of meds. I stopped going to my old doc and am awaiting a new visit with a new one. That appt. will be on Nov.20th. I am again feeling hope that there will be a better life for me than having to push through each day the way I have for so long now. Who would have thought that with all of the counselling and meds and doctors that I have been through that it would be my sons psychiatrist to shed light on this? Just talking about family history and my concerns about my children shed light on my own life. Just wanted to let everyone know that I am again with hope.