Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
from my journal:
a friend of mine attempted to kill herself last night and i had no idea whatsoever that she felt suicidal. i thought i was someone she would have been able to turn to about how she felt but i was wrong in so many ways. i thought i was the kind of person that puts my feelings aside and was there for everyone which i'm told is one of my weak spots because i find it so hard to open up to people about myself even with those who i consider to be good friends of mine. i grew up being told that the only person you can rely on in this world is yourself. but at the minute i feel like i need to talk to someone :( this has knocked me down i'm not who i thought i was obviously. i wish i could have been more approachable and maybe this wouldn't have happened. to any of you thinking about suicide please think about what it does to those you claim to love and those who love you because unless you've been on the receiving end of someone committing suicide or even attempting you have no idea how even an attempt can affect your friends and family.
a friend of mine attempted to kill herself last night and i had no idea whatsoever that she felt suicidal. i thought i was someone she would have been able to turn to about how she felt but i was wrong in so many ways. i thought i was the kind of person that puts my feelings aside and was there for everyone which i'm told is one of my weak spots because i find it so hard to open up to people about myself even with those who i consider to be good friends of mine. i grew up being told that the only person you can rely on in this world is yourself. but at the minute i feel like i need to talk to someone :( this has knocked me down i'm not who i thought i was obviously. i wish i could have been more approachable and maybe this wouldn't have happened. to any of you thinking about suicide please think about what it does to those you claim to love and those who love you because unless you've been on the receiving end of someone committing suicide or even attempting you have no idea how even an attempt can affect your friends and family.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
And you are absolutely right about holding on when things are the bleakest, because the grief that a suicide brings into the world will echo through the lives of the people you love for the rest of theirs...Suicide doesn't end pain...it only magnifies it in the world...We have to hang on..
Be strong and don't be so hard on yourself...Explore where you are in your life and reach out as much as you can...I understand about the self-reliance thing--that message was part of my very make-up while I was growing up...To the point that it is almost impossible for me to ask for help of any kind, and I often shut out normal human contact because I don't want to be a burden on anyone...Just participating here has been a huge step for me in that regard...