at this point i feel so alone and i know that i am going to continue being like this for the rest of my life... who would ever want to be around me i SI whenever i get the chance i constantly hide my true self just because the real me is this depressed person who wants nothing more than to die... i cant keep living like this i am at my breaking point and i just want to give up i have no one around me who really cares about me and i make my family ashamed of me... i dont know anything anymore i dont know why i am still here... ive been through so much and i am tired of it all even when things arent going so bad everything constantly consumes me and i cant do this anymore...i cant keep fighting with myself to keep myself alive...because this has been me for eight years and things just keep getting worse for me nothing has gotten better so why do i fight it nothing will ever change
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