im shattered, i have been running on so little sleep for weeks, either due to work load or due to fact my brain is full to bursting. i feel like crap, im so hurt and broken, feel like my worlds fallen apart. i feel so heavy, so tense and just everything seems so dark. its killing me, i want to curl up on hide n cry , but i cant do any of that, no matter that i want or need to, i cant, i just want release any of the tension. lame that i even want to i know. i feel so worthless, so useless, everything i do seems wrong to everyone. i just a waste of space. i cant do anything right, i have to rely on everyone because im so much of a cripple i cant do anything for myself, im just a useless waste of space who deseerves nothing because im such a bad and evil person. i just hate myself... all the grandparents have turned up for xmas and they been here less than an hour and im crawling the walls. i just cant cope with any of this. i just want to curl up in a ball n cry. there is too much drama in my life right now that i dont need... friends abandoned me for "lying". i just cant do this, im too low and weak to do anything of this. i need some answers , some solutions and quick cos im running out of energy to do this.
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