I started crying out of nowhere today. My boyfriend was in the living room watching the superbowl....and it suddenly dawned on me he'd been out there for a while.... and hadn't spent much time with me. I was also texting a support person about how earlier she hadn't answered a questions --- and I was afraid she was ignoring me. After telling her how I felt... she responded that she just forgot to send the message. I felt ashamed and embarrassed. Then I started feeling really deeply alone and the tears just started coming out and didn't stop for a long time. I took myself into the bathroom and sat in there, not wanting anyone to know how I was feeling because I didn't feel they were available to help. I cried and cried and cried. I didn't even know why I was crying. My boyfriend eventually noticed and then he started to feel really bad he felt he'd abandoned me and then he started panicking ( he has ocd ) and he started to cry telling me all about what was bothering him. All I could do was listen --- barely be there for him. I feel bad about this. I feel really angry too that he wasn't there for me. Mostly I feel sad. What do other people do to help heal themselves when you can't stop crying and you feel so alone?
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