Well, it has been a tough week. My therapist suggested I keep a notebook to write down how I am feeling on a daily basis. She suggested I use a rating system in which 1 is suicidal and 5 is happy. Ha! Happy? What is that? Mostly been in that dull and empty 3 range, but yesterday started in the 2 range and ended there as well. Throughout the day, however, I might have experienced a couple of 4 moments. It was a strange day. I made some bad choices. I tend to make bad choices. I have made so many bad choices in my life that I don't even trust myself or my decision-making skills. Why must life be so full of choices? And temptation? Goodnight all.
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