Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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I haven't wanted to kill myself in over four years, but now the desire is returning and worse than ever. Every smile (when I can manage them) hurts, I have little to no motivation for school, and when I'm not freezing and tired and miserable I'm crying and all of the latter... I've cried for probably around 10 hours in the past five days alone. Everything hurts too much and I'm tired of acting strong for people... I really don't know how much longer I can do this. I don't even think I'll last the semester at this rate.

Counseling hasn't been helping. I've even drafted good-bye notes and been doing research into everything I can find, including ways of killing myself. I've started cutting again.

I know I shouldn't want this, but... I know it wouldn't even to matter to anyone (except maybe my cat) if I died, so should I just stop putting it off? I'm just... So empty.
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Thats not true it would matter more then you could ever guess. i know you feel empty now but it will pass.

Please talk to people
deleted_user
deleted_user
I don't really have anyone to talk to.
deleted_user
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Just keep talking on here if you need to talk to someone. I have been feeling very suicidal lately and is the reason I started to come here. I understand wanting to stop the pain and feeling nobody cares. People do care.. I found comfort on here. If you need to talk I would love to talk to you. Please don't give up on life or yourself.
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I'm sure it would matter to lots of people. It would matter to me and I don't even know you. But I do know your talented and caring ...... that's more than a lot of people have. The hell with everyone else, care for yourself right now. Keep talking.....keep talking till there is nothing left inside of you. Don't ever give up. Please, believe me you matter.
stevebhopes
stevebhopes
I am very concerned about you. I am so sorry nothing you have been trying has been helpful. Does your counselor know that you feel like this? Do you have any support there in your life? As I read the posts I can count a few people here who would care if you died and I am one of them. I have attempted suicide a few times and things have improved for me. I am with a wonderful fiance who I wouldn't be with if I was dead. I still struggle and I still think about suicide at times but overall my life has done a 180. I don't dream of death as I once did. I haven't cut in almost a year. I am not saying this to brag but just to show you that things can and do improve if we don't lose heart and give up. There is a great website which helped me to not kill myself in the past. It isn't long and it will help. The link is:
http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/
Check it out please! If these feelings persist call a crisis line or go to the hospital. Hospitals are much nicer than they used to be and I should know because I have been to them many times. They give support and a place that is safe. Please stay in touch and let us know how you are doing. There is a lot of love here. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!
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