I was wondering if anyone else, if they never had depression before, developed it after finding out how little the social security disability expected you and your family to live on? I have Lyme, a tumor removed from my spine, cysts that rupture all the time, mimi-strokes, a pinched nerve, and degenerative disk disease in neck, yet they gave me my disability for a"Somatization Disorder" and I was diagnosed in 1990, had pics of all my other bites, and they even pulled one off of me three months ago with the full bullseye rash around it, yet my own attorney didnt even let my new Lyme doc testify. I'd like to know what the heck is going on here?!! Now they say I have to live on only $449.00 a month with my children (I am a single divorced mom, no child support because ex is recently disabled himself) and all because I only worked when husband was layed off from construction, he wanted me to be a stay at home mom (after I'd been told I could never have kids and then got pregnant after being married for almost a yr & was in law school!)and I'd only worked 9 1/2 years of my life and then took care of an elderly disabled korean vet for ten yrs for a roof over my childrens heads after my divorce. If I wasnt depressed before, its like the gov wants me to become depressed and finally end my life because I can no longer keep a roof over their heads like this and would have to move in with an abusive mother instead, i'd rather die first, but because of my children I would never take my own life......yet why am I wishing I were dead instead of disabled now? Its like the gov is punishing me for becoming disabled. Anyone else feel like this...ever? Feels like they want me to go nuts!
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