I feel I am the world's punching bag. I want things to go in a positive direction but, it's like I go 3 steps forward, then 5 steps back. I just got married but I feel no joy. He thinks I am doing evil, but I'm not. I can't seem to get is through to him. I felt like if I hurt myself that may prove my love. I am confused and hurt deeply. I want things to work but I can't get a grip. I don't understand what I'm doing wrong. I know what else to do? I don't want to leave, I've too much of myself put into this. I have had problems with being honest in the past, but it was because I was ashamed of my past. I was not a promiscuous person, I made a couple of bad choices in my early adult years. I am being honest now, but he dosen't believe anything I say. I'm always wrong it seems. I feel that I am singled out by the world to be hurt all the time. Why me?
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