somtimes i feel so lost. powerless. but as well as feeling powerless i just dont care....about anything...walk across the road without caring if a car comes and crashes me.. it wouldnt matter...also i wont bother to dress properly...i will look unkempt at work...like im in a daze..like i dont know what im doing or what is goin on around me. which i often dont...becuase i dont care, becuase its not important to me.. i guess im just trying to vent here, get some things out of my head.. and i just feel NOTHING i just feel totaly nothing no happiness no sadness...i guess just a quiet continual melancholy.. and im nothing im just here..
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