ok so the past few days my mind has had moments of being like"ok this stuff around me isn't real the trees cars building everything isn't real.....maybe we're in a non existance and this is all a mirage or something"....or i would think about non existance and a higher power and wonder how that existed of nothing existed.....or maybe there was always existance before the first days the bible tells us...anyway i've been mentally driving myself insane with this....i guess it is because my mom's death date is on thursday and my brain realizes this and does this a deffense mechanism ....because lord i have never thought like this before....i truely believe it is a mental defense mechanism or something because god i have never thought like this before
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