does it stop? I can't stand me anymore, Everything I put my hand to turns to shit. I can't write enough loans, I can't get some music down for a performance at Carnegie Hall, I have pissed off and alienated everyone around me here in NJ and on DS, I am too fucking gross to look at (don't look at my photo on my profile...it may cause projectile vomiting for the sensitive types.), and I have nothing inside. My ex-wife called and I got pissed off becuse the youngest wants to see me...the oldest (15) decided for him (13) who he can see nd my ex is in obeyance to her.I just want to be left alone and deserve NO HELP WHATSOEVER! I deserve to die alone nd lonely and be alone and lonely...forever.
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