So, I ended up calling a friend last night, and she helped me so I wouldn't cut. But she told me, again, that I need to get a counselor to talk to. Well, I actually had 3 people tell me that yesterday, and I know it's true. But I'm scared. I tried to make some phone calls today to find one, but I just couldn't do it. I've had a counselor before, and she was great, but I'm still scared of getting a new one. I know I need to though, things just seem to keep getting worse, and I can't let myself live like this anymore. I just don't know what to do. I know I need to do something soon. The blade is still sitting here beside me, and if I start I don't know if I'll be able to stop. What am I supposed to do?
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