I have suffered from depression and hating myself since I was a child. My father raised me always putting me down and still to this day makes me feel like shit about myself. Until I was 25 I always would let people disrespect me and never stand up for myself. I have no self respect of self esteem. I have been going to therapy weekly for 4 years now at the VA and am still a mess. I think there is a part of me that likes being depressed and I do not know how to defeat that demon. It feeds off of my sadness and anger. I used to try to get attention from people but I stopped doing that when I was 18 after I realized what I was doing. So I have to ask, how do you beat depression when you have been severely depressed your entire life and have short moments of happiness. I am so angry.............................
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