I've been depressed for a very long time now. But as of late it's been completely unbearable. I've feel so incredibly sad all day every day for the last month now to the point where it's hard to function. It takes me like three hours of laying in bed staring at the ceiling to finally doze off. Just laying there constantly thinking what if. In this last month I've also had my first case of suicidal tendencies, wanting to die, thinking about ways to die more often than not. The only thing I think that stops me is that I don't want it to effect the few people who do care about me. But something happened to night that finally just tipped the scale. I just want to goto sleep so badly and not wake up. I've never cried so much in my life. I don't know what to do.
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