How can I be with people, and be so damn alone, how can I talk to someone and than realize they know nothing about me, how can people words hurt me so much! It just hurts hella bad! I am trying so hard, and I feel like I am being pushed and pushed, till I get shoved over the edge, it is Just driving me crazy, someone can only be pushed so much, till they have no ground under them anymore, and next thing they know they are falling, and soon they will hit the florr and splatter and there will be nothing left of them. How can I be around people, and they are all laughing, and all I am doing is crying, and if I am not crying on the outside, I am for sure on the inside. I am sick of it. Damn I wish I was 90 something and dying!
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