I don't even know where to begin, but here goes. I moved from my hometown a year ago. My two daughters were attcked & mauled by a dog and I was offered a new job in a new city, so I paked us up & moved. Seemed Ok at first, myself & my 3 children, a fresh start. During the past year, I had to undergo a hyterectomy because of a cnacer diagnosis, learned my oldest daughter was self-mutilating because he needed to "feel". This was leftover from the dog attck. My youngest daughter is going through laser treatments to help with her facial scarring. I met a man, whom I just knew was my soulmate. He was a recovering alcoholic, but was active in his program. He slipped again. Lied to me. I have no family here, I have no friends here. I work all of the time and don't have the opportunity to get out and meet people. I feel very alone and isolated. Everything I knew, now I question. There's so many things that have happened to my family in the past year. I've been trying to hold it together, but I think I am failing. I can't even hold myself together. I am crying all the time. I haven't been to work in two days because I just can't stand the thought of anyone seeing me this way. I would never attecpt suicide baceause of my children, but I do feel hopeless, lost and alone.
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