I really hate how bitter I have become in dealing with my IF. My husband and his friends have this Paranormal Investigation Group. I am there case manager so I am the one that sweet talks everyone to get into places that are haunted for an investigation. I worked so hard to get the case they are working tonight. Its rare any one can get into this museum w/o special insurance and other precautions. But I worked my magic and got it for my guys. I find out yesterday the girl that is going to be opening the place tonight is 4 months pregnant and that she is wanting to follow us around a bit and she was complaining how she may not be able to keep up with us as much as she would like because she was pregnant. Now I dont even want to go tonight. I told my husband that it may be best they get a replacement. Ive been having a rough week as it is. Every night damn near I have came home crying and now I have to look at some girl who got the chance to be pregnant and is complaining about it. Granted all the guys are supportive and told me I dont have to go and I have done so much already for them. I hate it so much that I have let this come over me. I feel like I have no control anymore over any parts of my life and its all has to circle around IF. What should I do? Do I go ahead and go and tough through this? I know I have to face the facts of life eventually? I just dont know what to do!
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