I dont even know where to start. Im just struggling with everything. Everyday I cry and I struggle to even get up in the mornings. I can't see no future or any thing posotive in the future. I dont go out, I dont talk to friends anymore, I just cant face the outside world and I cant function right. Im not eating anymore because I just dont have an appetite any more. Just when i think things are going fine something comes along and just pushes me back to this feeling of dispair.I'm sick of being on anti depressants because they dont work. I still can't go a day or even half a morning without bursting into tear everytime i see sometihng that reminds me of when I was happy. I can't change the past and I dont want a future if all its going to be is sadness and lonelyness. Somedays I just feel sick to the stomache at myself. I don't even know what to do any more to make myslef happier.
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