I am not even sure to begin so I guess I will tell you a bit about me. I have never been officially "diagnosed" as being depressed but I have dealt with it for many many years. In 2006 after many years of being rejected on many levels I thought I finally found the love of my life and a spiritual path at the same time. I left everything I ever knew and came to where I am now. She had been through a tough relationship as well but it seemed she loved me. Well after pretty much being the fool and emptying my wallet, losing everything I owned and held dear in this world and today being fired two days into a new job because she got me there late and we also had a big fight about other things, I want to leave her. Problem is, with no income, no car and living with her and two friends, I have no cash flow but loads of debt. All because I foolishly believed I would find love there. I think it can be said that this is the worst day of my life. And I have had many such horrible days in my life but none like this. I am mostly a person that does not trust others but I let her into my life and it has spelled disaster. I have no idea what to do or if I have the time (being 37 now) to "start again". I know I am rambling but I feel like I am consumed in a fire that all the earth's oceans cannot quench. I am glad to see places like this exist though. It seems like there are a lot of caring understanding people here. Thank you for reading this.
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