hi all, don't have a lot of experience with message boards and such, but I was desperate enough to try it. I don't know what to do, I feel trapped in my situation, my long time therapist moved, been out of therapy a while now, no medications, well, not for this anyways, have a long history of mental illenss, been hopspitalized a couple times, but I've learned to keep my mouth shut, though that doesn't always keep me out, have social phobia (so writing here is hard), schizoaffective disorder, occasional suicidal issues, depression, that's the bulk of it. Still greiving the loss of my brother, who was killed in a motorcycle accident, and died within 2 months of my father. Have a terminally ill family member that's not doing well, and I am feeling overwhelmed. I don't want to talk to anyone professionally because there's no way on this earth I'm going back inside (nuthouse). That has given me lingering issues and I've had enough trauma in my life. Anyone have any helpful ideas? I'm feeling low and desperate and have a hard time fighting the voices in my head, and my own desires.
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