hey ladies and gents im just a bit depressed at the moment, and i dunno wot to do just feel like crying actually, hey y not ill give it a go. I have a close friend and shes going away for a while and i just will miss her so much but i think maybe thats jst a bit of it, in my other posts i have done, like bullying in the dyslexic forum, sometimes i just dunno how that efects me untill i say it u know? i have been through heaps and much more, my dad was a wanker to me and my family he used to drink and hit me and my mum and got so drunk i had to pick him up all the time becos im stronger than my mum. hes now is in a wheel chair he has got ms and i see him every now and then but he makes me feel so bad, my mum had cancer, my friend i was talking about before, just had cancer removed, one thing that plays on my mind is i got sick a few years ago and i nearly died, but my mum wouldnt take me to the hospital i had to get mad at her so she would go if i didnt i would be dead. that just blows my mind so bad.... i dunno wot i am thinking right now, when i was a teen i went though the cutting of myself really dont know wot that achieves but i just feel like no one cares and so y should i u know? everytime i feel like this i think the same thing, "no one cares" i dunno hey really dunno. work is so hard and i have to go back monday its all just getting to me i think. sometimes i get to the point where i think that im not worth anything to anyone but i know thats not true i have my sister and stuff but it still pops up. i dunno if this even makes sense just trying to get things out of my head and well that isnt easy theres like a lock on there that i cant get off because the numbers are wrong...
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