I need to vent! my f-ing roommate just got arrested outside our apartment. why you ask? over a gosh darn parking spot! we shoveled, someone stole it and that just pushed the roommate over the edge. she freaked out, boxed the offending car in and called the cops. upon their arrival she was so enraged that she forgot herself and yelled at the cops, landing her a trip to the pokey! i did go down and leave her bail money for when the clerk comes at 2 am. i also left taxi money. but now i am afraid of the aftermath. i know that some how this will be my fault and i will take the brunt of the heat from her when she gets out. i dont really want to deal with it anymore. i am tired of dealing with the anger and the mood swings and i dont know what to do. i cant leave, but staying is becoming more and more unhealthy on a daily basis. earlier today she was so verbally abusive to me that i had to walk away and leave her at the mall. the whole time i was away all i could think was that i would have to die to be free of the shit. it got so bad that i was fantasizing about lying under the wheels of one of the 18 wheelers that were waiting at a red light and letting it run me over right as the light changed. i am so very down right now.
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