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I am not sure how... Okay so I think about suicide and what it would be like and I daydream about how people in my life would take it, a lot. I wonder about it all the time and at least once a day get the urge to take me prescription pills and down the whole bottle but I never do and I have never considered myself suicidal because although I admittedly feel the want to close my eyes and fall asleep, never to wake up again, I dream of that peace and multiple times have prayed to a god I am not even sure i believe in for a terminal disease because I hate the idea of suicide, it seems cowardly but I am still begging for a way out of my own head and I wonder, does that really mean I'm screwed up? or is it normal or is it a phase?
I'm just scared of feeling like this all the time.
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maybe you should seek professional help for your suicidal ideation
deleted_user
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I'm not going to commit suicide, I want to but I won't because I have friends I want to stay happy more.
And every time I've seen a therapist, I tend to lie to them. I can't help it.
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I am with you on this- in my darkest hours what has kept me from seriously considering suicide would be the hurt I brought on my family- it would be the most selfish thing I could do. But I also do not want to tell them how horrible I feel because they would start feeling sorry for me and I don't need that either- so there is that feeling of being trapped.
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It sounds a bit like a thought that has turned into an obsession. I would think that you can get help and loose these thoughts soon. Depression teels you lies. (hugs)
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I had a weak go at it and the people on here open your eyes, so just jive it time.
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I agree completely- Depression does tell lies; No one is nearly as bad as their depression tries to make them feel...
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I thought of suicide alot and didnt act on it. Just thoughts going through my mind. Until one day I did attempt it. I think it is best to keep thinking of your family hon. No matter what you are imagining them and how they would react...you arent even close. Seek some professional help so these thoughts just leave.
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Of course the only problem is that in your moments of weakness all logic goes out the window.
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As I was told, think of all the loved ones that have to cope with it.
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