Depression Support Group
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I HATE that I feel this way!
I HATE that I think like this!
I HATE that I can't get past this shit!
I HATE who I am!
I HATE who I have become!
I HATE being FUCKING MISERABLE ALL THE TIME!
I have not taken laxatives in 5 days. I have eaten like I should and then some. I feel worse now then I did when I was fully engaged in behaviors. I have been dealing with a lot of physical pain in my joints(its in my journal) and I don't understand it.
I don't know anything other then I am sitting here with 100 laxatives and about half that many diuretics and I want to down them all. Sure I would probably just puke after shitting myself silly, but I don't care. I deserve to be miserable and suffer.
I am sorry to be feeling this way....
I HATE that I cause people here to worry...
I hate that I even bothered posting this...
I HATE that I think like this!
I HATE that I can't get past this shit!
I HATE who I am!
I HATE who I have become!
I HATE being FUCKING MISERABLE ALL THE TIME!
I have not taken laxatives in 5 days. I have eaten like I should and then some. I feel worse now then I did when I was fully engaged in behaviors. I have been dealing with a lot of physical pain in my joints(its in my journal) and I don't understand it.
I don't know anything other then I am sitting here with 100 laxatives and about half that many diuretics and I want to down them all. Sure I would probably just puke after shitting myself silly, but I don't care. I deserve to be miserable and suffer.
I am sorry to be feeling this way....
I HATE that I cause people here to worry...
I hate that I even bothered posting this...
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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Has anyone tried these supplements? Do they give MGers more quality of life by improving memory and overall well being?Thanks!Barbel
5 days..fucking awesome.
be proud.
throw the damn things away.
u feel sick because your system is trying to recover, ok?
but BITCH all u want...i do. lol :) xoxoxoxoxoxo
i LOVE who u are.
i LOVE that ur my friend.
i LOVE that ur my sister.
i LOVE having u around.
and i LOVE u very muchly.
you do NOT deserve to be miserable or to suffer. i know me saying that doesnt make much difference but its TRUE. ur amazing laynie - amazing amazing amazing. uve been thru so much and ur still here, ur still alive. thats SO important.
as for causing us worry - dont apologise. i would be more worried if u didnt talk abowt how u feel.
PLEASE dont take all the laxatives and diuretics ! please !
think of ur health, ur girls, guill, me.
dont do this.
i love u laynie - and im so so so sorry that im not there 2 help u through this.
but u CAN get through this, i promise.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I love that you are talking instead of taking
I love that you've done so well so far!
You don't deserve to be miserable and shitty, you deserve to be happy and have the support you need to get better. Some of that will come from here, some from docs, and some simply from you wanting to. You are stronger than your illness hun, you've shown that. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I don't know how overboard I will go, but it is going to be BAD. I will start slow but I know with where my mind is right now that i can not trust that it will stay that way.
I HATE THIS!!!! UGH!!! Why can't I be normal??
I HATE MY BRAIN!!!(or the sick irrational side of it at least)