.... am I scared of recovering from depression? I know it's an awful illness that warps the way my mind works, brings me down and kicks me in the head whenever it can. But it's become comfortable. It's become me, and as much as I want to work to recover I'm terrified of what I'll be if I do. I've settled into a routine.... work, go home, log onto DS or watch TV, and maybe go for a ride on my day off (if I can find the energy). What if recovering makes me a bad person? I can't remember who I was before I was depressed and I don't know if I want to find out who I'll be after......
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