it won't make you a bad person, you are already a kind warm person, you will just have more energy and more motivation to spread it around :)

HUGS

maybe because its a part of you for so long its like losing a piece of you.

have a hug

Does anyone else feel like this? I just don't get why I do. I mean, why would ANYONE be scared to recover from an illness???

I guess it's like when I gave up cigarettes, I had been smoking since I was 14, and it was such an emotional thing, I gave it up almost two years ago, but it was like having a piece of me removed....I think I know what you mean

Maybe cos even though it sucks, we are now familiar with it and it is predictable. It also means we don't have to venture out into RL as much. I think feeling like this is totally understandable and 'normal'

When I recovered from depression and was no longer on meds it was as if I had finally awoken from a dream. I saw the way my life had been for the first time whilst depressed. It was not all good and I had so much to catch up with eg.friends that I had ignored,events missed plus much much more.

You have lived with depression for so long and it is a way of life for so normal to feel like this. You have created a routine for yourself and are nervous about change. Probably another adjustment you will need to make to get you feeling comfortable and safe.
Recovering cannot make you a bad person, it can only make you a better one!

I wish you all the best.

I don't think your alone in feeling that way. With any illness you have to greive the loss of yourself. It's ok, fiqure out who you are since having depression and what you want to do from there.

My body changed physical when I became depressed just as it would with any other illness. I may get better, may go into remission, but I am forever changed by the expereince.

I was thinking the same thing the other day. Sometimes I think depression can become a familiar comfort, it's possible to wear it as a security blanket. Strangely safe bacuase we know it so well.

But dont be scared of getting well there are lots of possibities it you haven't got to carry it around with you. As for becoming a bad person, I dont think thats possible, the warth and love you demonstrate towards people isn't depression it's YOU and all you've learnt through your life.x

Yes, Gil...

I do feel that a lot... recovery means stepping outside ones comfort zone & into unknown / unfamiliar territory.

I have been a self-harmer for over 20 years...while part of me yearns to be free. Another part is afraid & wonders how will I cope.

*hugs*

Never thought about it that way, but Im sure some of us have felt like that. Maybe that's what's wrong with us all, too comfortable where we aren scared of the change.

I'm scared of the change, and I'm definately scared of the real world and socialising with actual people instead of others on the net who in most cases will remain anonymous forever. But i actually am terrified of me. I don't know me any more and have no idea what the non depressed me is like. What if I'm a bastard to people? What if I'm a womaniser or an insensitive prick? What if I'm just a complete arse who treats everyone like shit???

woah guill i never even realised u rote this thread ! u ok ?? xxxx

ur definitely NOT any of the things u just listed - ur entire personality wont change xx