Well done for the smoking thing, that shows you have strength :o)Talk to us on here, and you WILL find people you can relate to. Disappointed about the Christians, as real Christians would not have treated you in a such a way. If the meds have stopped working maybe you should go back to your doctor and discuss things with them x

Im sorry your haveing such a bad time. People find it hard to relate to people like us. have a good vent and chat with people here. Look after yourself.

God is still there...don't mind the people. Here you can say "fuck" and it'll be ok. ;-)

It sounds like you are having a rough time but you also stopped smoking. Congratulations! It may be hard but it's worth it. Like Jacki1 said, have a good vent here. Hugs!

i agree with fluttery, i think that you need to talk to your doctor, it can take some time for meds to work or maybe you need to increase them or change them....in the meantime...talk to us as we know how you feel and it can help to get it all out....what is bothering you tonight???

You have people here who care. Just speak up and we will listen.

i should be happy because i'm transfering to a four year school, and in a way i am. i just wish the rest of my life would get moving.
i've emailed, texted, sent letters and left messsages for my friends. but they still wont talk to me.
i try to talk to my therapist, but for some reason he refusses to believe that i'm doing baddly because i'm doing semi-well in school so that must mean everything's fine.
i can't talk to my family. i've never been able to do that.
and i feel ill. i haven't even eaten anything today. it's one of those times when i feel like i don't deserve food.

Im sorry that the christians didnt accept you.God always will though:) you can follow him without even going to church or anything.He is the only reason why I havent killed myself, he has rescued e many times i hope you will still want his help, dont listen to a few people who get mad at a word.

You can message anyone here who posted and we will listen. There are real nice people here who care about you.

Way to go on no cigarettes!!! If you can do that, you can get through this rough time too.

Don't beat yourself up too much for not getting to class. Just focus on going next time.

Talk to your dr about your meds. Talk to your therapist about how it makes you feel that he doesn't believe you. If he still doesn't listen and act concerned, find a new one!

Just because you found a group of Christians who treated you poorly doesn't mean that God has walked out on you. God will never walk out on you. You don't need others to be close to him. Keep praying.

Focus on the fact that you don't want to die. And also be sure you look at all the good things in your life. Keep coming here for support and as a place to vent. Do good things for yourself. Give yourself credit for the good things you do.

Life is tough, particularly when dealing with depression, but you can get through it! We're here to help you.

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i'm just affraid. how i feel now is how i felt in the past when i did something stupid. like i have these moments when i don't know what i'm doing so i'll down three bottels of pills. but i definatly don't want to do that. not any more at least. i've come tooo far.

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so aparently today isn't a good day to quit smoking. so my mother's going to get me a pack now.
i also took three, instead of one, of my anxiety pills. i know, it's self medicating. but sometimes it works.
i also get depressed sometimes because i'm a writter and almost no good writters have a good life. almost all of them are drug additics or alcoholics and a lot of them end up killing then selves. so sometimes i just feel like there's no hope for me.

I quit smoking a year and a half ago, (six days, five hours, 3 seconds, who's counting?) after many tries, that was a trauma in itself, I had to get the patch, cold turkey was horrible, and I was an emotional wreck when I did it that way. You can do it, but maybe you need a better time

Please get assertive with your therapist and let him know things are NOT well,

I have to practice at that myself, I go in and for some reason I automatically smile and downplay everything, even when I really don't want to, like I'm not worthy or something

we are here for you, there are wonderful people here and you are not alone

I sooo want to give up.Coughed a lung up this morning,keep trying.And demand that your therapist listens.Cry,rock back and forward whatever it takes,don't let them fob you off!