My life isnt great. Hell, it aint much of anything to be quite frank.I have very few friends, and the ones I do, use me for themselves then frgt I even exist. I go out and try to have fun, trying to force a phony smile to show Im having a good time. In the largest crowds, I feel very alone. Drowning in my own stupid fucking pity. I feel pathetic and ashamed. I shouldnt feel this way but its the only way I know how to feel. I feel ugly too. Maybe my life should be given to someone who deserves it since I just dnt want it anymore. Some ppl get there goods and bads, but all I ever get is bad. Nothing makes me happy anymore. Nothing. I cant relax. Its like theres a constant ball of pain, hurt and anger growing insde. I cant cry to let it out. Instead I wake up from nightmares at night with tears covering my face. I dnt even like humanity anymore. Im ashamed to be a human being. we`re a selfish and hopeless species. Whats even the point anymore. We try to be happy but to get there we are completely miserable. I give up.
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