I am recently divorced after 29 years, my ex who I still love became someone I didn't know anymore he was injured at work and was unable to work and then became addicted to his pain medication and resumed drinking after 11 years of being "dry".I had to have him leave as he kicked my 18 year old (then 17) starting his senior year in HS out of the house in a drunken rage and contined to drink every night which very much frightend my younger son and me.My older son moved back home and right now my two sons are on a camping trip for 4 days I am so depressed and have been for years I can't even get dressed it's a beautiful day and I don't care I just want to crawl away. I have spent my whole life catering and taking care of my family and working full time that I have not done things for myself have not kept relationships with girlfriends alive and I am so sad and lonely. This is what I wish for sometimes is to be alone to do what I want and here I am and I'm just so scared and lonely I can't move. Sorry this is so long someone please help me.
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