im sick of fake people around me,im really unhappy with my self and my life,i dont want to be with any one any more,and life is not worth living ...it's a living hell every day where i have to deal with painfull depression...yes PAINFUL i even have a bit of pain in my heart and i feel that i have no energy to get out and do what normal people do....no one can see the real me which is sad i dont even think i have any one who can support me in any way...if i had a chance to wish...i'd wish to leave this place and start over but yeah i can't cause im still in school which is the reason of my depression,i dont understand the people i hang out with!! i dont know what to do anymore what is wrong with me?? i know i have nothing to do with it but why am i carring so much?? i wish i didn't care but i really do! and i worry that i might lose the people that i call( friends) im not even sure if this word has a meaning any more to the public...so yeah im gonna end up crazy or sick....the worst part though is i still have one year to finish school...in 2 months im gonna have my summer holiday and then i'll start my new school year ...im not sure i can keep on going like this i need to learn skills from you people about being so careless and calm because i get emosional alot...ah there are so many things i wish i knew but im asking you as a sister,a doughter,or even a friend to help me be better and start building a strong charector before it's too late for me.
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