i feel worthless in life, no reson to be here, and my depression is n't causing this. see i have a rare deseas called klindfelters, which means i can't have children, or i'm starel..and i jknow i can adopt but its not the same...and to make matters worce my parnet keep telling me that i can have kids but iknow that i can't and it makes me feel like crap. and my freinds that do know make fun of me for it and wonder why i get so upset...and those are the ppl i thought weren't fake and turns out that they are. i hate home i hate my parents i can't stand them, and iknow eveyone thinks every teen goes through this but you don't understand, my mom threatens to beat me my dad has hit beat the shit out of me on more then one occatino, its stoped since the last time more then 4 mts ago but hte treats continue, my brother came home from iraq and he threatins me no matter what i do. it seems as if i can't do anything right. no matter how hard i try i cna't feel happy. i'm soo frigin sad and i'm angry for being sad. so i get sadder. i have so much anger that i started to pungh things untill i broke my hand and it helped but only for a while cus the pain hurt but felt good.. and it scares me that i don't think i can make it thought the year.. i feel as if i have no use, i have no life. i used to be part of the group now i sit and withdraw, these years are suposed to be the best of my life, i'm a senior. and yet i can't seem to kick this. i hate my life, i can't deal with this anny more.. i feel as if heven or hell is ganna be my only escape...and trust me i've tried to do it and sum how god keeps me here.. i mean when i first took on depression i was a sofmore and i tryed to hang myself the dam noose broke and i took it as a sign but now i don't think i'll stop if it fails...i need some one to help me, some one to talk to. pleese i don't want to hurt myself, i don't want to die, but i feel that it will bring me peace..pleese i ask for anyone's help, i need sumone i can talk to sumone who might care...plesse help me survie just onother day, or week or year...i'm too young to have to deal with this crap. plesse help me
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