Why did I have to get depressed? It seams as if all Im good at nemore is the one that can never be happy when Im wit people that love me n that care about me..I always thought that I would be able to get better without help but maybe I was wrong..I cant even find the joy in nething..all I've been able to think about is killing myself I know my depression gets worse in the winter too. I can almost feel myself hurting everyday bc I've lost my bestfriend..I need a new best friend but Im tired to letting someone in my life then having them hurt me again.Im sick of being the "diffrent" one of my friends. they know that I cut/burn n they all know Im depressed n none of them make it better..most make it worse by bringing things up that hurt me more than normal..I have had mental break downs in class n its so embarsing..one one understands me ne more I just cant take it!
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