They say that every one has a purpus in life. a reason for living, I'm starting to wonder if min is worth living for. i live my life for all those around me, and all it dose in lead to disappointment. i can never do anything rite. or live to the standards that society has set for us, ppl tell that i need to start to live for my self and not those around me. so i try it (what can i loos) i stop being Mr, nice guy and all of a sudden i become the jerk, and an ass hole, not I'm the bad guy that can not do anything rite. so I'm disappointing everyone around me even more and i feel like shit. i try to make friends and all i do id chase them away. the ones who stick around i think are its bc they feel bad for me, well to tell you the truth i dnt meed you pity for me i can make it alone if i chose to make it ! so what is the meaning in life, what is our purpus what do we have to look forward to? well my friends the awner seems to be NOTHING! and I'm tired of bull shit! it seems that im losing everyone around me one by one! life is like a novel with the end ripped out, the edge of a cannon with ONE way down.
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