Hello I am 18 years old, 19 next month and I feel like I have the worst life ever. I know it's not and I know it could be a lot worse. I've been depressed for the past year along with anxiety and ocd. It all started when I had to decide where to go to school. I went off to school and hated it. I was 3 hours away and I moved back home for 2nd semester. My sister and I share a car and I take it to classes everyday. My dad told me that she told him how she wishes I never came home and how she wants me to leave. My dad always makes comments about how I should move out. I plan to transfer in the fall and live in a dorm again the way I liked living, alone. I went to a therapist January-August until I left and have been taking Citalophram ever since then. It usually works but I haven't been taking it the past week. I forget to take it and it falls off my nightstand. I hate where I go to school currently and I'm afraid I will hate it wherever I go next year as well. I wish I could tell my parents everything I feel and how much I want to give up all the time but I know they would make me go to a mental institution. I get so stressed from little things in life, like taking notes in classes and what pen or pencil to use. I am in public speaking and cannot express how absolutely SCARED I am to speak. I've heard everything from everyone and nothing makes me feel better. I also have a job that I do not mind but the other day I got 'yelled at' for not greeting ONE customer. It makes me feel like a bad person. I feel so alone. My boyfriend and I have been dating for over a year and he knows I take medicine and went to a therapist but I don't think he understands how bad my depression is. He is the ONLY thing that makes me feel better and forget about how I'm feeling and I am really scared to lose him. So I guess I'm asking what do I do now that I have tried everything and still hate life?
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