Im at a low right now. Im torn betwwen so many things in so many pieces. I "mad" at my best friend, but i think im just pushing her away idk. I slept at her house last night and she was talking to her boyfriend on the phone ( i really don't like him bc he has anger/ rage, he also cheats and many negative things. he started the anger on the phone and she started crying, so his brother kurt (18) got on the phone and started talking and she gave me the phone bc she couldn't talk. I was happy talking to kurt bc even tho he's her bf's brother Im so in love with him, like i've never felt b4, but he's to old for me. And we talked for awhile and then her bf wanted 2 talk and she told me to say she was busy, so i did. He was getting annoyed bc I wouldn't tell him what she was doing (crying). Then his step dad was getting mad in the backround and he hates me already bc i flirted with kurt when i was dating their other brother kevin, but i liked kurt the whole time. So there step dad was blaming their fight on me, when it was her bf. Then they blamed Kurt, then me again, then both of us bc we were hanging out that day & i can't hang out with him now. Their mom was then blaming me and kurt hanging out as the reason the problem started. Its hurts me soo much bc Kurt is like the one 4 me, we love eachother and everything, but the age is the only thing keeping us away. And i feel like im committing a crime by loving him bc everyone's punishing me. After a few minutes my Bff said she'd call back, but they did instead and it was 11 at night so her dad picked up and then they said they wanted to talk to me but her dad said no. So they called my mom at my house and woke everyone up saying all i'm doing is trying to break my bff and her bf up. Also that i wasn't letting him talk on the phone bc i didn't want them talking and that my bff also agreed saying it was all my fault. I would NEVER do anything to hurt my bff. She called them back and started blaming me and kurt, then they wouldn't even talk to her while I was in the same room so she left me in her room and went in the room next door. She was talking to her bf's mom(which lies alot and loves to blame me and kurt) 4 ever. then my mom called her cell so i gave her the phone but she didnt pick it up. And i was pissed thta she just left me, her guest to just sit in her room while she talked to ppl that were talking crap about me. She was out there for about an hr b4 i decided to go just try and go to sleep. But I just cryed an cryed. She never came back in, till after i was asleep i imagine. When i was trying to go to sleep and crying i was thinking she's solving a problem with her bf and leaving me, when there's just gunna be another problme 2morrow, ill get blamed, and my parents will be called. when i didn't do anything. I hate how she doesnt stick up 4 me when they say i did it, bc i Always stick up 4 her. I told her how I felt and everything and she's mad that im mad 4 "no reason" as she says. But I can't take it anymore, her dealing with his crap (making her cry everyday), their parents telling lies, being told I can't love kurt, being torn away from my love, being blamed, getting punished at home. I think the best thing would just be to let them be,my bff would be happy so IDK what to do anymore!!! this has been going on 4 awhile now, just not last night -shorty
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