Ok well here it is.......im sick of life & i want to die. Im lonely & dont even make an effort to live life cause im afraid of the world. I dont respect either parents but i luv them, i realized tht my friendz arent enough to keep me alive. I hav no passion to live & no strength to make it. I jus wanna be gone frm this earth SOO bad, all i think about iz suicide & i hav nothing to say for myself. Everyday i was tht i wudve died wen i got hit by tht car in jan. I wish tht i crossed the street alone & tht stupid bitch wudve hit & me & i died. Im closer to suicide then i ever waz & it scares me, i can kill myself & no one wud kno till they start to wonder where i waz, i kno for a fact tht i can slit my wrists right after i type this & u all will kno im died b4 my parents. I usually hate talking about my problems bc u all now kno im weak, i cant stand anymore & i really jus wanna die. Im close to killing myself & honestly i feel so wierd. I dont hav tht muc fear holding me bk anymore, im not gonna live for my friends anymore & this is jus something thts becoming reality everyday. I had dreams but who cares, im sure once im gone ill be at peace, idk kno where im goin but ill be at peace. I wont feel anymore pain, & ill jus be free of life.
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