I had depression last year and I overcame it. But, I've never felt one-hundred percent back to normal. At times I feel like I can't do anything, like I'm trapped in this one spot in my life and I'll never get anywhere. I used to be outgoing and now I'm afraid of what people will think and afraid that I won't be liked. Last year there was a huge fight with all my friends. We all made up, but none of them seem to want to talk to me. I tried my hardest, asking them to hang out and calling them. I don't know what to do. I feel so hopeless all the time. Like no matter what I'm doing something wrong. And the worst part is, when I think all of this I tell myself I'm just feeling sorry for myself, which I honestly on the inside don't believe that. But I tell myself enough that I won't talk about it. I think that other people have worst problems and I'm being pathetic. Plus, I was in the hospital March '07 for attempted suicide. I'm not suicidal and I'm afraid if I talk to my best friend she'll think I am.
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