My friends joke and call me their "oprah". i listen to what they have to say and i try to make them feel better. most of my friends actually have problems. they take their emotions further than i do. but theres time when i want to talk to someone about my problems. even if they are childish. but i dont want them to get annoyed of me. so i make my problems stay my problems and not drag anyone else down with me. i only have acouple of friends but our friendship is greater than any thing else. but today my boyfriend totally blew me off and i usually just take it and think hes having a bad day and usually cry about it at night before i go to bed, but this time it was different. i actuallly cried at school. i dont know why im so emotionally attacted to him when he cant even give me the time of day. and my mom is going into surgery tomorrow so haveing him say that shell be fine would have made my day. i lay in bed thinking if the world would be better off without me. if anyone would talk about it. or if theyll just say 'too bad' and live thier lives. when people say "hows your mom" they always follow up with a robotic "how are you?" theres on sincerity in their voice. its like their forced to care about me. my friends know me and the happy one thats never down and will always make you laugh. but they dont know that i cry everynight because i wish that i had their life.
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