Life has been a living hell. I grew up with my grandparents because my parents never wanted me. Ive been rejected all my life. A few months ago I started getting into witchcraft deeply. I used Ouija boards and tried to contact the dead. I asked the devil to come into me. Stupid I know, but now hes here. Im being emotionally possessed. Not like the excorcist but where he comes in and rips your heart out. I cry constantly. Im always on the negative side of life. I started cutting myself and doing things I sould. I recently became to being sexual with my boyfriend [not sex but other things]. This is not me. I want to be closer to god and drive the demon away but I dont know how. My boyfriend is very supportive but it feels like everything is happening to me because of what ive done. Its draining me. Physcically and emotionally. Im weak. I know im hurting many people. I feel as if Im tied down in chains in a sea of sadness. It feels like nothing can be right again. Im doing things I dont want to do. Im thinking things I dont want to think. The devil is ruining me. How can I get away from this? How can I be closer to god?
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