i know how u feel all too well, its the same for me nearly every day. The only difference is that i have no scars in which i can find myself. Its a horrible feeling knowing that no-one else notices you, that you feel the need to hide your true self from others just to maintain the false reality. But you can only take so much. My advice is dont do this alone. Force yourself to tell someone, it doesnt mater who or how you tell them just as long as they know. Once one person know it will be easier to tell the next person until you can be helped.

Finaly, something ironic. your not ugly. to be ugly you need to care about what other people think. and on the matter of appearance and interests, other peoples thoughts do not matter, only your own. The only thing that makes a person ugly is how ugly their personality is. The kind of people who think they are better than everyone else, that think that their opinion rules over all, thats what ugliness is, not you. and this is coming from a narcissist

I have told some of my friends, aswell my mother knows, they all just turn a blind eye at the situation, and I personally think I'm ugly because I don't like who I am or the way I look, although a friend once asked me, If you could be ANYONE else in the world, who would you be?, My response was simple...Myself, I don't like myself, that doesnt mean I would change who I am, this is what I was given this is who I'll remain. Needless to say she was baffled at the response.

A Tender Heart,
KrymsonTearsFalling

maybe you should seek help from a higher place like a doctor or something. although i hate this response its the only thing i can think of at the moment because the minute i think of the doctor i think of how he dealt with a freind of mines depression by loading him with anti-dipressants. These are the last thing i would suggest. If you are into music or art then maybe you could show how you really feel through that. i myself play the piano and while playing a piece i really enjoy i can manage to escape for just a while but it is only temporary, it helps me a bit maybe you should try something similar?

if you really do think your ugly then what are the reasons for this? what is it that makes you think that your ugly?

when i said these are the last things i would suggest i meant the anti-dipressants not the music and art

I write alot already, and occasionally draw, although its getting harder to let this be my release. I honestly dont know why i think Im ugly, I just have always thought that...i personally think that my "best feature" has always and always will be my personality,albeit somewhat flawed at times.

youll find that as it gets harder to to release your depression(spelt it right this time) you should notice that your not as depressed as when you started out. If not then maybe you need a new fixation, something else to keep your mind on other than what you already have.

do you see that you dont know what makes you ugly? so if there is nothing that you know that makes you ugly then how can your ugliness be a reality. the only thing making you feel ugly is your belief in it, try for a day, an hour, or even just a few minutes to say, "you know, Im not ugly after all" because it make a major difference what you think of yourself