I usually right out my feelings or talk to my theropist...because i dont have anyone to really talk to...cuz alot of people dont get it.

Cassie,

So great to hear from you. Writing can be so beneficial...please continue to do so. It is also great to hear you have a therapist. And remember, there are people here to listen.

Lots of people don\'t get it. Because they only get \"normal\" sad. They don\'t know what it\'s like to want to shoot yourself as soon as you get up in the morning. Because the hurt inside is so great, and ever-present; that nothing takes away from it except crying and self - destructive behavior. I\'m glad you have a therapist -- people that can tell you what\'s wrong with you are the ones that can help you fix it. (\"You\" is used in the universal sense.)

well... i tend to hold it all in until i burst and end up crying myself to sleep for a couple days straight. i really don\'t like people worrying about me and i can pretend that everything is ok really easily. i haven\'t been told by a doctor that i\'m suffereing from depression... but the big black tunnel seems to never end.

Who do I turn to when I need support?
Thats a very good question. Honestly i\'m stil trying to figure that one out. Today when I got on the omputer I typed in the Google search box \" Support Groups\" Hoping I could find someone that would listen, comfort, and give me advice. I am a very friedly person, and my favorite people are the ones I just meet, or havn\'t yet. No one knows that im going through difficult times...there are a few people that know that there are things that keep stressing me...but no one knows that i think it has turned into a serious depression. I am thinking baout writing a journal on my story. Its kind of long so dont expect it( or the whole thing) any time soon.

Thank you.
\"Miss Elaine\"

i am sooooo with you on that one. i have a ton of friends. a couple know that somethings not right... but that\'s like 2 people. ohter\'s just think i\'m aggresive and that\'s just because i am. nobody seems to quetion what is bothering me. sometimes they do but i tend to answer with a \"i\'m just tired. it was a long night.\". it\'s very odd. i don\'t want people to know but i really do want them to know. heh. i\'m just wierd like that.

yea thats exactly my problem there isnt a real support system in my life no 1 that i can actually just talk to and them understand what im saying. i usually just keep them all boxed up inside but that isnt working

What if I used to write...but i dont anymore?
I dont write anymore because i look at it as writing down what i think. If im the one thats doing the thinking. Then i already know whats going on. I didnt used to think of it that way. I used to think of it as a way to remember what i was thinking. But if you think about certain things long enough...I promise...You dont forget.

I always wait until I\'m really mad about a bunch of things at once and I just explode in tears. Most of the time I take it out on my boyfriend or my parents but my boyfriend knows and actually cares about my problems so he makes me talk about it. If I have a problem with him then I write. But I was wondering how to find a therapist??? I think I really need help but my parents are clueless or don\'t care and don\'t have a lot of money anyway.

for me, its not a person, its music. and i know it sounds weird, but i dont feel comfortable telling people all my problems. and so i just turn on some music and think it thru like im talking to myself inside my head. sometimes it works. but i wish i had another person to talk with that i believe sincerely cares.

Sometimes i think in my day the things i want to say when i get online and go to Daily Strength.
I think and think.
I get home and type.
Nothing.
But sometimes i feel better knowing sometimes its better for me to try to help others, than to look for help myself. And thats all i really want. Is to help others. Thats why i want to be a physical theropist when i grow up. Not save lives like a doctor. But to help them. Where do all my anger/stress/questions go? Im not sure...maybe they\'re in the sink.
::crazy/evil laugh::
( read journal to understand inside joke with self)
:D

i honestly turn to one my ex cuz hes a good friend and then i turn to my current bf hes easy to talk to and really does care then i turn to people on here cuz i cant count on my family

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